There is always hope even in your darkest hour (s) !!
Susan WashingtonTen years ago on June 5,2002 I got pulled over at LBJ and La Prada in Dallas, Texas . The end result of that traffic stop was the possession charge that revoked my probation and sent me to prison . As I said in my recent blogs my life had deteriorated at such a fast rate from my relapse a few weeks earlier. As the cops went to their car to run my license I knew I would be searched so I tried to eat part of the drugs I had . It was hard but I succeeded.
Although the baggies got stuck in my throat I was finally able to swallow them. As they went down the reality set in that I could OD on all these drugs. I had just left the dealer and had all kinds of drugs , I had meth for me and pills and coke that I got for someone else. I ingested a lot and what I didn't eat resulted in a state jail felony. I was really scared because I didn't want to die but I didn't want to tell the cops I ate the evidence either so I just remained silent .
God protected me again, that is the conclusion I have come to is God had a hedge of protection around me during those weeks of insanity : when I ran out of gas in Lindale and was scared of the truck driver, when I crashed my car the day of the bus accident , and when I ate a bunch of drugs. He kept me alive for HIS purpose and has been preparing me since I accepted him 7 years ago;))
I know I still have so far to go but I look how far he has brought me and how he has changed me from the inside out and I want to serve him sharing all he has done in for me. He has performed some amazing miracles in my life and I want to tell of the things he has done!!! I want to be like Isaiah who said " Here I am, Send me" when the Lord asked " Whom shall I send? And who will go for us? I want the Lord to use me ~!!!
Isaiah 6:8
Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, “Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?” And I said, “Here I am. Send me!”
I was very messed up , making some horrible choices but he stilled loved me and wants to use me. No matter what you have done , He loves you too and has a purpose for your life . There is always hope and it is never too late to change. I am living proof of what HE can do and there is so much yet to come. Loving life and can't wait to see what he has for me:)) As I look at my mug shot below , I appear desperate but today I am a new person overflowing with hope. That is what a relationship with him can do.
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Susan, your stories and the things you have endured simply amaze and terrify me. You have to be one of the strongest people I have ever known to exist. My daughter (Shelby) went to school and gymnastics at ASI with Alexis since around 2003. I can't even begin to imagine your pain, but this most recent tragedy has touched so many lives already and is making people stop and think. For me, reading all your entries, I can feel your pain through your amazing words and my tears are flowing as if I had witnessed everything. You, and your family are in my prayers. Always remember that it is not time that heals all, it is what you do with that time! God bless you.