Ten years ago on June 5,2002 I got pulled over at LBJ and La Prada in Dallas, Texas . The end result of that traffic stop was the possession charge that revoked my probation and sent me to prison . As I said in my recent blogs my life had deteriorated at such a fast rate from my relapse a few weeks earlier. As the cops went to their car to run my license I knew I would be searched so I tried to eat part of the drugs I had . It was hard but I succeeded.
Although the baggies got stuck in my throat I was finally able to swallow them. As they went down the reality set in that I could OD on all these drugs. I had just left the dealer and had all kinds of drugs , I had meth for me and pills and coke that I got for someone else. I ingested a lot and what I didn't eat resulted in a state jail felony. I was really scared because I didn't want to die but I didn't want to tell the cops I ate the evidence either so I just remained silent .
God protected me again, that is the conclusion I have come to is God had a hedge of protection around me during those weeks of insanity : when I ran out of gas in Lindale and was scared of the truck driver, when I crashed my car the day of the bus accident , and when I ate a bunch of drugs. He kept me alive for HIS purpose and has been preparing me since I accepted him 7 years ago;))
I know I still have so far to go but I look how far he has brought me and how he has changed me from the inside out and I want to serve him sharing all he has done in for me. He has performed some amazing miracles in my life and I want to tell of the things he has done!!! I want to be like Isaiah who said " Here I am, Send me" when the Lord asked " Whom shall I send? And who will go for us? I want the Lord to use me ~!!!
Isaiah 6:8
Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, “Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?” And I said, “Here I am. Send me!”
I was very messed up , making some horrible choices but he stilled loved me and wants to use me. No matter what you have done , He loves you too and has a purpose for your life . There is always hope and it is never too late to change. I am living proof of what HE can do and there is so much yet to come. Loving life and can't wait to see what he has for me:)) As I look at my mug shot below , I appear desperate but today I am a new person overflowing with hope. That is what a relationship with him can do.
