My life is better today than I ever dreamed it could be :)

John 10

The Message (MSG)

A thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came so they can have real and eternal life, more and better life than they ever dreamed of.

This morning has been somewhat emotional for me, as anniversaries have always affected me so tremendously. It is about 10:45 and it was exactly 11 years ago that I was sitting on the edge of that bed in some motel room contemplating ending my life because I couldn’t see a way out of the mess I had caused. I was so hopeless, scared, ashamed, and felt as if I was all alone in this world. The thief almost destroyed me that day but through the grace of God I picked up that phone and made a life changing call. The kindness and love of a stranger, who I believe was an angel sent from God to intervene, saved me from that thief and myself.

Hebrews 13 ² Do not forget to entertain strangers, for by so doing some have unwittingly entertained angels. Remember the prisoners as if chained with them—those who are mistreated—since you yourselves are in the body also.3

I am so thankful I didn’t die that day : )) God has been so very faithful to me and my life is the best it has ever been. I am the healthiest emotionally, mentally, physically, and spiritually than I have EVER been. So much healing has taken place. There was a time that I thought I would never be able to shed the guilt and shame that I carried because I felt responsible for so many things ( mother’s alcoholism, mother’s death, Kathey’s death, neglecting my kids, disappointing everyone I loved, etc ) But those destructive emotions are gone and today I live in the freedom that only Jesus Christ can provide and I love to share that hope , it really brings tears to my eyes. I know I go on and on about this but I want everyone to know what the Lord has done for me because HE can do it for anyone and we all need that.

Daniel 4: ² I thought it good to declare the signs and wonders that the Most High God has worked for me.

For so long I searched for joy , peace, and happiness through things of the world and what I have learned is things of the world may gratify but they’ll never satisfy. Only Jesus Christ can give you real peace and joy. It took drug addiction, alcoholism, prison, and a death of a precious 12 year old boy for me to finally get that but today I cling to that relationship with Jesus Christ and thank him continually for saving me from myself and that thief who came so close to stealing, killing, and destroying my life. Today I walk in the freedom that HE freely provides. Smiling through tears of joy and gratitude at this moment !!!