Last night I had a nightmare. It is really the first bad dream I have had in a VERY long time. In the dream my phone rang and it was a police officer saying "-------------- has been in a car accident. I don't know how they are. All I know is it was very bad" The exact same words said to me the day Alexis died but I didn't know who had wrecked and I knew Alexis was already gone. Panicking I asked ...
him who but his answer wasn't clear, I asked again but we were then disconnected. Quickly I redialed but it would not go through. The fear was overwhelming and I began to cry uncontrollably . At that moment , in my deepest despair with such a sense of forboding , a sweet angelic voice jarred me out of my dream saying "Mimi, Mimi !!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH " What a blessing she is in my life.
Today will be the first Halloween without Alexis, she loved Halloween so very much. The other important holidays will soon follow: Thanksgiving, Christmas, and Easter. Those are the ones that stand out , the ones we spent together as a family. So begins a tough leg of our journey. Maybe the sense of forboding in the dream brought to light my feelings on this coming season. But as always GOD intervened and brought joy through my pain:))
Today will be the first Halloween without Alexis, she loved Halloween so very much. The other important holidays will soon follow: Thanksgiving, Christmas, and Easter. Those are the ones that stand out , the ones we spent together as a family. So begins a tough leg of our journey. Maybe the sense of forboding in the dream brought to light my feelings on this coming season. But as always GOD intervened and brought joy through my pain:))